When my children were younger I so enjoyed (mostly!) accompanying them to school, sometimes reciting the times tables and on other days speeding alongside them on their scooters. I waited until they were about ten or eleven before setting them off on their own. I didn’t want to let them go on their own until I felt they were capable or old enough; I made the journey with them.
I think it’s the same with God. He doesn’t set off us on a journey unless he knows we are ready for it, but too often we don’t acknowledge his greater wisdom and we think we know better than God. When God was sending Moses to Egypt it took some negotiation and we see Moses full of ‘what ifs’. What if they won’t trust me, or what if they won’t listen to me? He clearly found it so hard to accept that he had the abilities that God required for the task. God knew who he needed and he called Moses to do the work, of going to Egypt and bringing his people out of slavery.
We may not have exactly the same doubts as Moses expressed, but I hear many people say “I’m not sure I can do that” or something similar. Too often we doubt our abilities and we are fearful of not being able to fulfil the tasks that we are entrusted with or called to.
After telling Moses about hearing the cry of his people, the oppression they were under, and that he was sending him to them, Moses answered God, “But why me? What makes you think that I could ever go to Pharaoh and lead the children of Israel out of Egypt?” (Exodus 3:11)
“I’ll be with you,” God says, in answer.
And that is all we need to hold on to, that God will be with us. He will journey with us and give us the necessary resources, wisdom or particular skills needed at any given time. We might go through something really uncomfortable but that doesn’t mean we should question our abilities to get a job done. The rock of self-doubt is one that needs to be moved out of the way. After all, we may not have the privilege of a lengthy negotiation with God and his gracious reassurance; we might just have to get on with it.
Prayer or reflection
I sometimes doubt myself. I doubt that I have the right skills to complete a task that I am called to do. Help me to move the rock of self-doubt and rely on God’s call and on his wisdom. Lord, I don’t want to miss out on being a blessing somewhere or journeying with you if you want me for a particular task. Help me to trust that you will be with me all the way and help me to say yes.